Rehearsing Rising Tide

July 17, 2:34 pm
 
Jumping, my impulse is to completely disconnect from my heel, I shift the whole self forward, disconnecting from my primary control, the front of my body completely takes over
Shift my weight back, sense of heel and actually weight in my heel in order to be able to push off from my heel
I noticed this when I when passe, eleve, passe, eleve, passe, inhibiting my impulse when the next thing was jump
Nothing on the &, tricking self in order to know preparational movement, what do I do when I think about jumping, how does the body prepare?
 
Beginnings and endings – how do dances begin, why the slow build to something, can I start a dance in the middle of something?
What if something had no beginning or ending? It just continued, it never started, it never stopped, it always was.
 
Where the arms “begin” = at sternum
I notice that I think of arms as being separate, distal, not connected to my center, not connected to my spine, reimagining “arm” considering the full structure as I am dancing, and how that reconnects limbs, radiating out, paying attention to all the parts in between, somehow hands become more articulate- they begin to take on new textures, tones, energies,
 
Ankles higher than I think – hard for me to envision still….
 
Where am I?
Who is there with me?
What do I see at this line in front of me? What is that line?
Ocean, waves, tides, sand beneath my feet, somewhere costal, but why, out to sea, by the sea, breast is important, feeling the invasion of something, keeping something at bay, ship off to sea, where am i?
The place that I am is expansive- I am outdoors
Why?
Micro and macro, there is a world so much bigger than me
I am but a drop in the ocean.
Leaving a place behind, leaving a person behind (ending, is about letting something go) about a willingness to leave something cared for
 
The beginning is about caring, a caring for a place, a caring to feel that place, to know that place intimately through the body.
Letting something go before it happens.
How do you prepare for the hurricane? How do accept the havoc it is going to wreak?
 
Staying in the moment, not allowing it to happen as it did before, not about innovation, but it is about not falling into habit, allowing myself to experience movement in that moment.